By John Knight, former student of the International School of Clairvoyance

At the beginning of developing/exploring one’s psi related, students are unsure that what they are doing is “real” and what it is exactly they are trying to do when they practice.  Crippling doubt seems to be fundamental to process for most people.  Many teachers and authors use the words “pretend”, “made up”, things like that.  I think it’s done to allay anxiety and fear, but it has the opposite effect for me.  It makes me uneasy and reinforces my doubt.

Assertions that it will work ring hollow without a mechanism of why this might work.  These doubts then make it hard to settle in, focus, and feel confident that I’m doing something that will lead me somewhere I want to go.  I suspect at least some others feel similarly. I think this is a hard problem to work your way around even with constant reassurance.

So here is a possible way of explaining it.  Consider asking a room filled with 5 year old children to create a picture of a house.  You give them all the same picture and ask them to copy it and you hand them all the art supplies they want – glitter, macaroni, pencils, water colors, finger paints, colored paper, everything.

You will get an amazing array of results, every single one of which will be seriously flawed in terms of accurately reproducing the picture.  Objects will be missing, the colors incorrect, windows missing.  Objects will be present that weren’t in the original picture.  Some children will draw their dog in front of the house even the picture clearly doesn’t have a dog. Nothing will be to scale.

Now perform the same exercise with a group of 55 year old career graphic illustrators giving them each a comprehensive set of pencil lead drawing instruments.  You would get back precise, complete, accurate representations of the picture.  Interestingly though, despite using the same equipment and having years of the same kinds of experiences and training they will not be identical.  Each person will use shading a bit differently and lines will be thicker or thinner.  These different techniques will yield significant differences, but each drawing will clearly represent the picture accurately, completely and without superfluous information.

So, we, as novices, are simply at the 5 year old stage.

We have a hard time even focusing long enough to remember what we were supposed to do in the first place. We don’t know which tool to use or even how – glitter, colored pencil, crayon?  We end up getting glue in our hair and spilling glitter all over our classmate’s desk. We can’t draw lines well at all.  We can’t control our hands because we haven’t practiced – our neurons and muscles just aren’t there yet – we must fumble around to help them develop.

It is clear we will need to spill a lot of glitter and get marker on our face while we figure out how these tools work. We must do this before we can even try to represent anything with accuracy.  We lack discipline and must cultivate concentration and focus.  We keep thinking of our dog or older brother or ice cream trucks, so we draw them in there when they shouldn’t be.  As we practice though, we move in the direction of the accomplished graphic artist who correctly filters out these distractions and knows how to use the tools and which tool to use for the given situation.

Fortunately, we don’t have to be at this advanced stage of development to do something important and feel like we are progressing.  Even the 5 year old will capture some of the essence of the picture.  Maybe it’s just the color of the roof, or the fact the house has a door on the left.  Maybe it’s not even the house itself we portray, which was supposed to be the focus, but it’s the tree adjace